8.18.2013

August 17, 2013

White Dog grumbled a "Thanks alot, Quinn!" as Steve announced that as part of his birthday plans each of the White Dog Army was going to get special one-on-one time at Spa Steve. Water has a cleansing and purifying element, he told them. He needed to share a washing away of some pain in order to honor Quinn's request to celebrate the day.

Then, too, I pointed out, this would be time for each to spend time being lathered in love; time in the splash of the water together to shed a few tears unseen. Each would have their moment to individually tell Steve their birthday wishes.

After breakfast feasting New Mexican style on huevos and tortillas and beans, the salon opened for business. And so one-by-one, starting with Nuka, the WDA joined Steve in the bathroom. We could hear the talking and the running water and pauses for soaping and foaming. We could smell the fragrant shampoo and wet dog. Finally wrapped in a towel and still leaving trails of dripping, a wet pup emerged in Steve's arms. Transferred to momma, the Wet One was surrounded and sniffed by the rest as together we dried and curried and floofed until patience required letting go to allow for a good shake.

The baths were endured in good spirits because they made Steve smile as he fussed and cooed over each of the Army. He reminded Oso that Quinn hated to have his belly soaped, just like he did. Puff got to try The Other White Dog's favorite conditioner. YoYoMa cried softly when first placed in the tub, just like his brother used to. White Dog, like Quinn, came out of the spa and went right to the treat jar. Nuka got to use Quinn's towel.

Steve did allow himself to be feted by Michael and I at a little French bistro we love. Quinn showed his approval as we sat at our window table and a stray ray of the setting sunlight shone through and struck Steve's shoulder. He smiled and I felt his heart lighten. We brought home chicken liver mousse to share in on celebration toast (and a bit of sole for Nuka who cannot eat chicken), And then we cuddled...all of us together...and felt whole for just a while.

Nuka, Quinn's best friend and protector, is perhaps having the hardest time. She misses her companion hugely and spends lots of time just lying in "his" places and looking depressed. We are all giving her extra love and attention as we explain that Quinn has not abandoned her. We still have conversations with him and feel his presence...at night we all now sleep together in our bedroom...including the formerly solitary Nuka. We are slowly crawling from the wreckage of our loss. thank you for sharing our journey...and our pain.


8 comments:

Bailey Be Good! said...

We're all thinking of all of you, and sending lotsa woofs, huggies and prayers your way. <3

~Bailey (Yep, I'm a girl!)

24 Paws of Love said...

My heart breaks for you all, but especially Nuka. Our dogs are in such strong pairs, I can't imagine losing one or the other.

I bet they enjoyed their alone time with Steve.

24 Paws crossed for all of you.

Jeanne Pursell said...

Having been through this...my heart goes out to you. It is so very difficult. Sending you all strength and love.

Amber DaWeenie said...

Dogs understand loss as well as humans do and the WDA knows that one of their warriors is missing. It's good that all of you can lean on each other during this painful time.

Random Felines said...

while we are too sure about the "bath to celebrate" thing, we are glad everyone got a chance for some one on one bonding. we know Quinn will continue to watch over all of you.....

♥♥♥ The OP Pack ♥♥♥ said...

Sounds like the WDA management has things well under control. Ciara sends her love to Nuka and adds that it does take time. She is still working on being happy again, but each day is better. If she could get some snow, she might really be happy. We all understand the slow crawl.

Woos - Phantom, Ciara, and Lightning

Brian said...

Hugs to all of you and especially you sweet Nuka.

meowmeowmans said...

I feel as though I have lost one of my own. Tears, hugs, and gentle purrs to you all, dear ones. Especially Nuka.