8.13.2013

August 13, 2013

White Dog and I sat together in the icy blue first light of the day and watched Quinn as he lay on the pallet of blankets we set up at the foot of our bed. "He's home," she said softly. "Where he belongs." And yet her voice caught as my heart has since early yesterday evening when Steve brought him in and set him up on a similar pile of blankets in the thick of our life in the living room.

The Mighty Quinn has had no seizures and for that we are grateful. And he is voraciously enjoying regular food and treats and water. He is aware of his surroundings when he is awake (he dozes lots mostly). He cannot walk and does not seem inclined to even struggle to try. Though not seizing his body is still often rocked by tremors in his leg or facial contortions. He is calm and does not appear to be in pain.

But there is a distance. Quinn is content to be an observer. He lies on his spot and happily drinks in life around him...the sounds and sights and routines of the White Dog Army and us humans. He actually raised his head and smiled at this morning's song to the Mailman, with sort of an "Ahh, yes" kind of look.

I believe Quinn is saying his goodbyes and revisiting all those things that made his life with us the amazing rich experience that it is. I think he is letting the rest of the Army see that he is tired and fading. Always gentle and caring about others, I believe he doesn't want a trail of tears in his wake.

He and I have looked deeply into each other's eyes. It is ok for me to continue to hope for a miracle or that his new medication will bring him magically around...but I have agreed not to let that get in the way when he tells me that his fight is over. We both suspect that time will be soon. (And here I add that I would love the Universe to prove me wrong).

In the remain ticks of the clock, we will not think of the clock but will do what the White Dog Army does best...be there for each other and love one another fiercely...and try to remember that life is a combination of both the bitter and the sweet. Acceptance of this perspective comes much easier to a Mighty White Dog than it does to this momma.

Maybe the miracle in progress is simply this time together. Thank you all so much for sharing this with us; knowing you are there loving and caring and hoping helps more than you can imagine...for all of us.

25 comments:

Khyra And Sometimes Her Mom said...

Of khourse, woo must remember his song -

Woo ain't seen nothing like The Mighty Quinn -

Paws khrossed fur khomfort - and love - and life fur all -

Hugz&Khysses,
Khyra and Khousin Harley

ra husky said...
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ra husky said...

All our prayers, love and soft warm husky woooos.
RA, Isis & NanĂ¼k

FiveSibesMom said...

We are with you and Quinn and share i Khyra's message, after all he is The Mighty Quinn. He is a true warrior and much love and prayers are coming his way, and yours and Steve's.... Stay strong, Quinn...

Anonymous said...

My thoughts and prayers are with all of you White Dog's, including the Mom & Steve...Quinn is as has been said strong & mighty and you all are with him no matter what.

Lucy (Troy, Ohio)

Amber DaWeenie said...

I'm so sorry I've been away and had to read a few older posts to find out what was going on with Quinn.

I'm sending you comforting thoughts and prayers for Quinn. Miracles do happen and that's what we hope for Quinn.

Hugs

♥♥♥ The OP Pack ♥♥♥ said...

Your words make tears come to our eyes as our own grief is still raw. We will hope for a miracle for Quinn.

Woos - Phantom, Ciara, and Lightning and Mom

Sally Ann and Andy said...

We are glad Quinn is home. We are sending Eskie hugs and Welsh kisses.
Sally Ann and Andy

nancyturtle said...

Home where he belongs, no matter what the future holds. Wishing you peace.

holly and the huskies said...

Holly and the huskies send lots of best wishes and hugs. Boo says she understands, she had a bad one the other day and was out of it for awhile, but is better now. So, we hope for the best for you and your family.

Jo's World said...

Blessings on the Mighty Quinn
and all those who love him.

Jo, Stella and Zkhat

24 Paws of Love said...

Our paws are with you. As are our hands and hearts. Take every moment and relish it. You can never say I love you, enough. :)

TwoSpecialWires said...

Sending love. To each of you.

Agnes B. Bullock said...

Words simply fail me- we are here for you and the entire WDA

Sam said...

I'm so sorry. We will say prayers and keep him in our thoughts.

Sam

Brian said...

We all love you dear Quinn and we are sending our best and gentle purrs to you dear friend.

Ruby said...

The Five Sibes posted abouts Quinn...I'm so sorry. I will keep my paws crossed for him to bounce back fully.
I'll send all the POTP I can muster!
Kisses,
Ruby ♥

Random Felines said...

we are sorry we have missed everything going on...not sure how that happened but please know we are thinking about all of you (mom had to go find a tissue). we are sending HUGE purrs to Quinn and all of you.

The Slimmer Pugs, Kitties, and Mama said...

Kisses to Quinn and to mama Sue and daddy Steve.
Much Luvums,
The Slimmer Puggums
George, Gracie, Toby, Lily, & Mimi

Sagira said...

Oh, I am SO very sorry. I wish there was something to say or do to make the pain go away and this easier. Just love sweet Quinn.

meowmeowmans said...

We love you, Quinn, and are glad you are home with the WDA. We are purring and praying for you, your Momma and the whole family. We, too, hope for a miracle.

Mr. Pip said...

Sending lots of love to Quinn and all of you.

Your pal, Pip

KB Bear said...

I have been away from the internet for almost 3 weeks, and this post upset me terribly. I send you and Quinn and the whole pack hugs and love.

Bailey Be Good! said...

Please forgive me for not stopping by often. I think of you all a lot (mommy & Nala too!). We will say lots of prayers and send lots of loving woofs & huggies your way. <3

~Bailey (Yep, I'm a girl!)

haopee said...

This hurts, Mom. I know how it feels to wait. And I truly hope that a miracle will happen. However, whatever happens, I am sure it is for the best.

Whether Mighty Quinn will remain steadfast in the mortal world or be the Emissary of love and memories over the Rainbow Bridge, he is blessed here and now.

Hugs, Paws and Prayers.