3.30.2017

March 30, 2017

White Dog leaned against me. "It is not good is it?" I bit my lip trying not to overreact but shook my head. Benson spent the day at the vet still fighting his raging pancreas. I just got off the phone with Steve on his way home with our boy.

Both vets agreed that they are pretty sure that Benson's issue is not pancreatitis but rather something MUCH worse. That coupled with his rising, albeit slowly, kidney numbers, made for a not very hopeful prognosis. He was sent home with tramadol for pain and medication to continue to treat his inflamed organ.

We now have some serious considering to do.

And Benson did not make it easy. His increasingly reactive behavior tells me he is in pain. And yet in our motion picture (as opposed to the snapshot seen by the vet of a drugged dog) indicated improvement. He walked to and from the car and up the steps. He is using the dog door. He even ate a bit, and leaped for a cookie.

But he is withdrawn. And tender. And we know how awful and irreversible the pancreatic c monster is.

We talked tonight, Steve and I. Benson will ultimately have his say but I know right now he would do anything to prevent me from crying or feeling pain...including setting aside HIS pain.

We will watch through the weekend and see how things go in the hope that his is just a tough case of pancreatitis to kick. We believe in the power of love and our Army deserves the chance to create a miracle. But we also believe in doing no harm and causing no pain so we are dealing with the potential of losing my very special boy.


One thing is certain here. We are snuggling a little closer, all of us. We are embracing each moment. We are focusing on love. Whatever is to come...we are facing it together.


13 comments:

Lovable Lily said...

Thinking of you all & paws crossed.

NanĂ¼k said...

We are with you,

NukNuk & family

Random Felines said...

we wish we had the perfect words to say.....we will just send our best healing purrs

TwoSpecialWires said...

Adding our love to your snuggle. Much love.

Amber DaWeenie said...

We also just went through a very worrisome time with Holly. Six weeks ago the vet all but gave up on her. Today she is recovering and doing very well for a nearly 17-year-old. So miracles do happen. We send all our POTP and prayers to Benson in the hope that he gets his miracle too.

Hugs

Brian said...

Hugs and tons of love from all of us.

24 Paws of Love said...

(((HUGS))) Thinking of you all.

Murphy said...

We are so sorry to hear this news about Benson. We have added him to the POTP blog. If you send a photo (cecampbell@msn.com) we can add that too.

Barbara said...

Oh my, what a horrible couple of weeks you've had. We are sending our positive energy and healing wishes. We are all paws crossed here.

Team Beaglebratz with Lady Shasta said...

Mom Kim here - You all really have had more than enough to deal with lately. I was so sorry to read that Benson is now having more problems and the answer is still unknown - I think that is what's the most difficult to deal with.

Lady Shasta sends her Beagle arooooooos to Benson and I am sending prayers, healing vibes and hugs to all of you.

Madi and Mom said...

Wwe are do very sorry to read about Benson....so close to Anya's passing. This is so hard on you all.
Hugs and kitty kisses Madi and mom

Just Mags said...

We just heard about your sweet Benson on POTP. We are sending positive thoughts and prayers your way. Warm hugs to all of you.

Molly T. said...

We are so sorry that your sweet Benson isn't well and that you all are feeling the pain. Just know you're all in our thoughts and prayers. We are a family here that believe in miracles and we'll be praying for one for your Benson.

Molly and my Mom @The Fast and The Furriest

http://thefastandthefurriestat.weebly.com/